Pregnancy part.1
Currrent stage of pregnancy: week 8 GA; week 6 FA
Some thoughts about my early pregnancy.
CW: light description of bodily fluids
Anxiety
I'm terrified. We didn't get to see the embryo yet, my first echo is in 3 days. I'm scared something went wrong, maybe the heart is not beating, maybe the embryo is deformed. Maybe we were wrong and the lab gave me the results of another person and I'm not pregnant at all (higly irrational thought).
Astonishment
We're reading stuff everyday about the development of our embryo. If everything went well so far, our 15 mm baby has little hand plates with fused fingers, a functioning heart and liver and some sort of fold instead of a mouth.
Symptoms
I feel weird. I'm always hungry but as soon as I take a bite I feel full. I'm always nauseus. I'm discovering all kinds of vaginal discharge, some with pink or brown hues indicating I'm still bleeding. Apparently this is some kind of normal cervical bleeding because the cervix is more vascularised during pregnancy, and these small blood vessels are prone to breaking. It can also indicate a small hematoma near the placenta, which would be seen during my echo this week. None of this is dangerous, but sometimes healthcare professional advise pregnant people to reduce their activity level, to prevent further detachement of the placenta. Again, we don't know yet what causes my bleeding, I'm at rest until I see my doctor in Thursday.
Addictions
I had 5 cigarettes in 6 weeks (before pregnancy, I had about 5 cigarettes everyday). I think this is too much but I also think 5 cigarettes in 6 weeks probably won't cause major damage. I'm still hopeful I'll be able to stop smoking. I've been sober for 3 month now, stopping alcohol consuption has not been a problem.
Gratitude
I'm grateful for my family, I can't wait to bring another human being to the pack. Cats are doing well, my husband is sweeter than ever. This man will be a fabulous dad.