Reality is itchy (cw: gross picture, meat, flies)

Bon appétit!
Today was intense. I actually experienced a good ol' fiblomyalgia flare up and my whole body aches and burns. On another note, the synthetic hormones supposed to help me become pregnant makes my breasts hurt. This morning, I moved a big fly-infested half-dung half-mouse-corpse from my front porch (probably left sooner by a wild carnivore). Tonight, I had to change my bed sheets that reeked cat pee. So yeah... I'm trying to find a television show that will sooth my mind but everything feels fake.